I hate Diabetes! It has taken over my life and is spinning out of control! As a friend of mine said, diabetes is boring. I couldn't agree more. I don't want to check my blood sugar, I don't want to count carbs, I don't want to give myself shots in the stomach or fill pill box full of pills for the week. And for 8 years now I haven't done most of this. I was never checking or counting and now a week before a rotator cuff surgery my doctor tells me I can't have it! My A1C was 10.3 and in the diabetes world that is not good!

I am so sick of this shit! I don't know why I can't get it under control. I have no self discipline, and I feel like crap every day all day long and now the pain of my shoulder 24/7 I can't take much more!